God, let me not play these scenario games. Fill this void I have with a fullness of You. With a love of You. With Your peace. Take away these stupid thoughts about future dealings because I don’t know what else to do with them. Let me know if I should pursue or not. Let me know if this is the one or not. Because I FEEL like it could be. But I really want to KNOW that it is. I see the qualities I’ve been praying for: A God lover, artistic, enjoys a good meal, but I just don’t know, God. Those things could be applied to anyone. You know what I need, someone who can encourage and build up, someone who can compliment me holistically, body, mind, and soul.

It’s late God, and I just want to sleep. Please God, let me sleep tonight. I really need it.

Thank you, Amen.

[EDIT]

Hebrews 12:1-3 (NASB)

1 Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 [a]fixing our eyes on Jesus, the [b]author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

3 For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary [c]and lose heart.